Sorry this is probably going to be kind of long and maybe a little bit of a rant
Today is day 4 of injectables–day 1, 2 and 3 were strictly Follistim and tonight I start the dreaded Menopur. I’m scared. I hate needles and after being poked five times at the doctors because my veins just wont cooperate because I’m dehydrated (medicine?) I’m just over it. I want to be one of the lucky ones who randomly takes a pregnancy test and is like “whoops I’m pregnant”–but in all honestly I know that will never be me. That’s okay though–I just have to fight for what I want.
As of right now, I have a headache–I’m at work and all I want to do is be at home in bed..this medication is so exhausting. I have so many friends/family texting me and simply asking “how are you?”–that keeps me going. It’s like that old saying about raising children ‘it takes a village’–in all honestly it takes a freaking village to even try to have our baby/ies!! I know I could not do this without the friends I’ve made thus far in our infertility journey or the friends/family that actually care enough to support us even though most of them don’t really understand IVF 100%.
I guess today to simply put it I’m just tired and you know what that’s okay.