Sharing IVF adventures

I’m a firm believer in an open and honest line of communication. I choose to be, at times, overly truthful about our IVF journey and the fact that “yes twins run in our family but we actually did IVF to conceive”. Maybe it makes people uncomfortable, maybe they have no idea what IVF means and […]

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It’s 2019 & We have toddlers

How did this even happen? I’m reading these old post I’ve made and it’s giving me all the feels. Honestly, many days it feels like our IVF battle was a lifetime ago and then I see these archived posts and it makes me ache for the woman I used to be. By no means has […]

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It’s been awhile

i guess i should probably update this journal and change some of the titling around—wondering why? Well because I’ve officially been a momma for 3 months and a few days. My twin daughters were born on Thanksgiving day at 1:27 and 1:29 AM. Mothering two sweet girls is so much more than i ever even […]

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6 days after 5 day frozen transfer

there really isn’t any other way to put it–I’m scared. Beta #1 is tomorrow and Beta #2 is Thursday. Current 2WW(ish) symptoms:  bloating, insomnia, fatigue, hunger all the time, cramping (lots) and uterus twinges. I feel like I am pregnant but it scares me so much to actually feel that way. I don’t want the […]

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10 days

I’ve been staying off of Google–there really isn’t anything left for me to ask “Dr. Google”, honestly. I am oddly enough pretty calm. I guess all my life I have been a take life as it comes kinda person–obviously there have been parts of our IVF process where I was upset and broke down from fear […]

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22 Days

this past weekend I forced my husband to agree to a “baby talk free weekend” aka no mention of babies, baby things or anything IVF related. At first he wasn’t too keen on the idea but he toughed it out for me–I guess I just simply needed a break. It’s exhausting, this whole process just […]

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fears>>

Today I started to worry… will both of our girls make it? one a 5BB and the other a 5BC? Will we have to go through IVF again to be able to have a daughter? I am hopeful but it’s hard. Everything has gone too perfect-I’m waiting for the shoe to drop. I know I can’t […]

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•IVF and my husband••

Last night, while on my way home from work, my husband asked me to dinner so we can talk. He shared with me that he’s scared, scared this isn’t going to work, scared that we will have no daughters, and scared that we will have to go through IVF again.  You see we’ve had this […]

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\\just a little something to help in the midst of all the madness//

IVFBUDGET Above is budget I used to keep track of all of our IVF expenses, dates, notes etc. Trust me when I say having a folder AND a document like the one above will help you keep your head on straight when trying to make your payments, remember costs, and just go a little less […]

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today>

today was one of those days that you stop and think, I am the luckiest person. Really I guess it wasn’t luck but more so science–yet I still feel so lucky. Our Day 5 call came and we got word that 11 of our little darlings made it to freeze and that there was one […]

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